The game is still on. I’m a little beside myself at this point, wondering, wondering, wondering. What is going on in there? Nothing has happened yet. That’s all, nothing yet, no AF and I haven’t done a test, and this would be one of my longer cycles, and tomorrow would be my longest. So… I should have news tomorrow because I learned yesterday that at 13dpo (days past ovulation), the test will be 99% accurate. Who’s coming over??
Fortunately, I had scheduled a work trip for this weekend, which is an awesome distraction but I just got alone in my hotel room for the first time and feel all shaky and also tired due to my early flight. I am tempted not to post this because I don’t want you to be disappointed, or me to be disappointed, but I’m feeling a tiny bit hopeful. And glad that I have UCSF plans rolling, rolling, in the meantime, so not even AF will slow me down.
Dinner at 7 which means 3 good hours of work now, and I shouldn’t squander it blogging because I need to get the work stress off my back. The point of my trip is to see the kickoff of a huge video project–today was the rehearsal and tomorrow will be the first day of shooting. The actors are all adorable and in their 20s and I want to eat them up. I’m looking at them like I’m their mom. I’m looking at everyone like I’m their mom, actually. I got a nice smile from a cutie on the walk over here just now, and catcalled from a moving car, so maybe my mojo is flowing, or maybe I have more appeal in LA?
I get to be an extra in the background of a café scene tomorrow, so I know I’ll be occupied tomorrow. I almost didn’t make this trip, and I’m SO glad I did.
Thanks for coming with me along for this ride. I realize too, that the positive test is not the finish line by any means. It would mean that I cleared an important hurdle, and then the initial weeks can be tenuous. So let’s proceed with caution and keep going about our biz. K?
the solo mama project 
I so love your courage, your deep and powerful insight on all aspects of this wonderful journey, small and significant. Yes, you are not alone in this magical chapter, one who’s only certainty is that it won’t be (certain that is!). Keep breathing and smiling and knowing that near and far, you are surrounded by your loving, cheering (in some of our case LOUD) support squad. Love to you from Mary and Tim
Tim and Mary, bless you! I needed to remember to breathe. 🙂 Grateful for my cheering squad… thanks so much!!!
K.
XOXO to you, ma belle.
You and me both…playing the w.a.i.t.i.n.g g.a.m.e.
XOXO wish we could just sit around and watch movies together during all this waiting! I have new respect for alllll the waiting you’ve logged. You are a brave mama. Almost there. xo
K!!! Was that too many exclamation points? Xoxo to you!
I had to look up what AF means. All the lingo and initials are quite the learning curve for me! Love reading it all though!